mm... exams finally end le.... now gt one month holiday liao ... but dun know y .... i am still nt happy at all ... just feelin veri weak ... veri moody... veri sadness... haiz... mm.. today after sch thn i go play billiard and pool wif alex they all at clementi lo... play like so shit ... doesn't play well like last time le... thn after tat actually already met up wif ben, kt and pinda go civic sing k de... cause i gt coupon... thn also i wanna go there vest out my unahppiness.... but hu knows.. when we went there... thn da ppl there say needa pay all together $52 more.... which means each ppl 13 dollars lo... ehh... i dun mind payin tat de cause i realli feel like singin de ... plus i wanna fa xie de... but thn dun know y tat idoit ben keep sayin wat so expen thn dun wanna sing... thn too bad lo.. end up nt singin .... thn go causeway point walk walk play arcade da vest out unahppiness lo... haiz.... so damn sadness ... heaven just like da bully and play mi... already veri sad le.. wanna go sing k da let off also cannot ... wat have i done wrong ar mr heaven ... y ya keep playin tricks on mi... ya everytime c mi feeelin like tis u veri haooy is it... thn might as well shot one thunder down and strike mi lo.... #$@%#$% mm...... think now i can't do anything now le... just let day pass mi day by day ... thn i try da work everyday so as da keep myself busy thn no chance da think of all da unhappy stuffs le... think tat's da onli way ba.... haiz... loser means loser ... one's a loser, always be one!! just wanna go back da where we start off again .... lights off ... ZZzzzzz......
--- still struggling without hope
GD FOR NTH +HOPLESS + USELESS+ UGLY FREAK = W.S
---> pray tat tml will be a better day for mi ...