mm... i already expected tat tis will happen da mi again le ... he heh... tis is wat i worried about most de ... u may nt have any feelings for mi le ... but .... i still have it for u ... i will nt hate u de... but ... mi just wanna carry on like tis wait ... carry on like tis wait finish da 23 days .... maybe there might be miricles, maybe nt ... no one knows ... but no matter wat ... i have already prepared for it le ... although i had expected wat da outcome will be .... but i will nt hate u ... i will just be da same old mi ... da way i teat u will still be da same .... just like da last time ... no needa feel guilty or bad de .... it's my own willingness .... if i failed .... i will just do wat she say de .... 'let u go' ... let u go da where u wanna be ... i may be sad, but i wun let u know de .... cause ... 1 person sad is better than 2 persons sad ... i dun wanna c u unhappy ar ... heh .... i am realli damn stupid ......
maybe let's do an experiment .... tis few weeks ... i think i wun be sendin u any gd nite msg or wat de .... let's just c whether we will think of each other ma ... let's c whether we realli have feelings for each other ma .... i dare da swear tat i will definitely think of u ... everyday every night ... will u think of mi ma ... let's wait and c how ba .... maybe it will also be a gd chance da help u test out your own feelings ba ... maybe one day u will suddenly think of mi and take initiative da msg mi ba ... heh ... i know i am dreaming .....
out da bbq ....
-23 days --> nvr give up ... right here waiting ....