i thought i could touched u .... but looks like da endin is still the same .... realli can't change destiny, can't change fate .... i still gonna lose u ..... ben,u're right , i am wastin my time waiting .... i will onli get hurt deeper and deeper if i keep on waitin like tis .... u tell mi to let her go .... but i can't... now ..... looks like i realli dun have the choice le .... i realli must let u go no matter wat .... since u insist to push mi away thn .... i had nth to say le .... nth .... u win ... u call the shots .... i can onli follow wat u wan it to be de .... no ... it's nt your fault ... is mi hu is at fault for nt lettin u go .... is mi hu is at fault for nt pulling myself away from u .... i am onli doin things to hurt myself .... i am stupid , i am stubborn, i am nth .... i can't do anything .... now ... u're leavin mi le .... walkin out of my life le ... i had nth le .... lost everything ....
wat do u mean tat u can't be so close to mi .... so wat ... i know u're goin to avoid mi again le ... fine ... if tat's the case ... u no need to avoid mi .... i will back out myself willing ... i will leave u alone .... i will nt disturb u le .... i know tat's the way u wan it to be de right .... i know we r goin to be like last time le .... onli sms .... just a sms- pal ... nth else to u ... y .... y the gal tat i like always goin to tell mi all tis ... tellin mi tat is my fault is theirs , tellin mi tat i can find a better gal ... fuck off .... wat's da use .... i rather u be straight forward ....
i will keep my promise de .... but there's one thing tat i can't promise de .... and tat's drinkin ... cause ..... i am too hurt le ..... sorry ..... i kept my promise but will u keep your promise too ma .... i just hope tat u will come to mi when u r down .... so tat i could console u .... at least i could stay behind and be your guardian .... think tat's the onli much tat i could do de ba ....
i realli wish tat the next time we c each other ... it would nt just be a hi and bye .... heh ... i know i must be mature a bit and let u go .... let u fly as high as u wan , run as far as u wan ..... i know it's no use forcing u .... so .... i must force myself to let go .... i remember u once said be4 tat if i get hurt, u will also get hurt ... heh ... is tat realli so ma .... i dun think so ... but anyway ... also no use le .... let mi be the one hu get hurt ba ... let mi be the one hu is bleeding ba .... let mi be the one hu should back off and cry ba .... at least i could c u happy ... i still gt lots of things tat i heaven say to u de ar... but looks like it's all no use le ..... i wil always remember my story wif u de ... it will always be remembered inside my heart .....
be4 everything turns back to where we start from ..... can i just say one last time ma .... ' i love u wo ai ni ' ...... heh ... at least u had feelings for mi be4 , better than no feelings at all ba .... realli hope tat we could still keep in contact .... realli hope tat we still could lame wif each other .... lastly ... here's a song tat i wanted to dedicate to u de .... think ... wat i wanna say is all in the lyrics of the song tat my blog is playin now de ba .... hope tat u will listen wif your heart and feelings .... xie xie .... thanks .... for willing to give mi a chance .... thanks for lettin mi to know u ..... i will nt forget .... i swear and promised .... take care.... may u be happy always wif no probs and study hard ..... =')
- can a broken and bleeding heart still be able to recover ma ....