y .... y da endin is still da same .... we realli can't fight against fate and destiny ma .... i realli hope tat we can be together de .... but .... y things would turn out like tis .... friends .... heh .... i realli dun know wat can i still do de le .... i realli dun wanna end it tis way de ... i .. i just can't be your friend ... y everytime da outcome would be just friends ..... sometimes i am thinkin .... should i hate u ma .... i can't bring myself da hate u .... i dun wan .... i dun wan u da be my enemy .... i dun wan .... it's worth it de ... as long as there's a chance it's still worth it de .... i am realli lost .... lost again .... i am bleeding again .... dun know y ... maybe ... i realli heaven let go ba .... maybe ... i realli can't bear u da leave mi and walk out of my life .... i am realli veri terrible right now .... knifes stabbing into my heart .... in and out in and out .... can't i realli choose da love da gal tat i like de ma ..... i can't do anything le ..... i am now hopin for drink , but ... i promised u .... so i wun drink ... i wanna cry ... but i had no more tears da cry ..... friend and love .... i hate tis 2 things ..... i rather i am a person hu had no love and friends ..... at least i wun feel sad in such a way .... i am strong always .... but tis time round ... i am weak .... too weak da stand up .... y dun i just stay down there ... nvr get up .... just let mi die there .... i am just a loser ..... i know ... time will heal everything .... but do u know tat time makes mi think of u and miss u even more ma ..... i know i realli can't have u le .... i gonna accept da fate tat i have lost and u have walk out of my life le ... everything gone le .... just left my ownself ... sorry tat i keep holdin on to u nt lettin u go .... cause .... i realli can't bear to do tat .... i shouldn't be so selfish de .... i shouldn't control u ... u happy i happy .... i wanna c u happy ... so ... if tat is da endin u wan it to be .... thn ... i can't say much le .... tat's da endin tat u r happy wif it de so i should be happy too de ....although it's painful for mi da do tis ... although i maybe hurt and sad but ... to c u happy ... it's worth it de .... thanks for all da memories ... although it is short ... but .... it's precious to mi .... xie xie in future ... remember dun eat too much choc and ice cream le wor whenever u r sad ... if nt u get sick and cough again le ar ... dong ma .... although i can't walk together wif u ... but at least i can walk behind u ... just like your shadow ... always be there for u de wherever u need mi or someone .... always will lame wif u and make u happy de when u're down .... always console u wherever u r crying .... any probs just approach mi .... i will do anything da help u de even it were to risk my life ..... take care le ... friend ...everything's worth it ....
-i nvr regreted loving u , i will always be your lamer king ... =)
