looks like after dennis chalet ....my life is goin da be damn pack le ... i purposely made it tis way de ... so tat maybe tis kind of stress will keep mi occupied .... occupied till i had no space and time da think about u ... today , i spent most of time thinkin rather than listenin to da lesson ... thinkin ... thinkin... thinkin ... thinkin of wat exactly has happen le ... y ... y it would end up tis way ... i thought we maybe have chance da be together de , but .... wat happen le ... wat makes u feel tis way ... i realli dun understand .... i also been thinkin wat had went wrong ... is it because of i didn't do much enough ma .... or did i did smth wrong tat make u unhappy de ma .... i realli dun know ... i wanted da forget wat had happen totally de but i can't ... dun know y ... i feel tat i am unwilling da forget u .... unwilling da forget everything ... i dun know y .... wanted da buy vodka and drink again de but no $$ ... i dun know wat had i done wrong .... i always thought u have feelings for mi de .... but y suddenly ..... i realli feel like cryin .... but dun know cried how mani times le ..... everytime came across da mrt station , i will start thinkin le ... thinkin of our first outin ... other stuffs ... i think .... i am still unwilling da give up .... but i just can't do it ... i am realli feelin terrible .... goin crazy soon le ......
- i still can't accept da fate tat our story has realli ended ......