thanks everyone for all your words and everything including my bros and friends ..... i know it's nt da first time ya all c mi sad le ... heh ... long time nvr c tat kind of mi again le ba ... i know some of ya all will say mi stupid , sayin tat there r others more worst than u de or watever ..... but i appreciate wat ya guys wrote ...... realli appreciate .... i myself also dun know tis time round will take how long again da stand up le .... now ... cry also cry le , drink also drink le, sad also sad le ... wat else can i do da fa xie .... wat else can i do da lessen my pains and sorrows ... can one of u just head my head real damn hard ma usin a bat or watever weapons ya all can get de... hit till i could lost my memories ma ..... i wanna lost it all ..... i am still thinkin about all da memories ..... thinkin of how it started at first till how it end it .... maybe just let mi like tis think and think ba ... think until i am sick of it le , think until i am numb le thn maybe i will wake up again ba and stand up ..... right now .... i also dun know how should i react if u r standin in front of mi .... should i just smile, sad or just walk away quietly ... i dun know wat kind of emotions should i use da face u ... i realli hope tat i could run forward and hug u tightly.... maybe for da last time .....








dun worry , since i promised nt da drink again thn i wun.... i will keep da promise .... i am nt angry wif u at all .... i am just angry about myself , how come i am so useless .... y am i so ugly.... how come things always ended tis way ..... honestly speaking ..... i realli can't bear da let u go ..... i realli can't do it .... can u please dun leave mi here.... i am now trapped in my tears .... i dun wanna forget u thn da next time we c each other will be like stranger .... a most familiar stranger .... i dun wan ... i realli dun wanna wait for tat gal da come ... if i can , i rather wait for u da come thn waitin for tat 'true love gal' ...... i realli can't forget about u ..... and i dun wan it too .... no one will expect tis da happen de ... i am still waitin ... waitin for u da give mi tat chance da watch aeroplane wif u ar .... but i know it's impossible le .... i know your next paper on mon le ... so ..... better study hard ba and put all tis behind first .... concentrate on your paper first ba .... maybe ... after your o's .... a miricle will happen ... a miricle tat both of us woluld make both of us happy ..... gd luck for your all your papers le .... i will be prayin hard for u de .... sorry da make u worried about mi ..... i dun wanna c u worried too .... i wan u da be happy too ar ..... happy and cheerful just like da first time i saw u ......




- now thn i can understand and believe y nth is forever de le ...... cause no matter how hard u try and believe in .... we still can't defy fate and reality ..... we can onli accept and face it ....