i dun know y .... just have tat strong sense of feelin and desperate to c u at tat moment ... realli wantin to c u again standin in front of mi .... i know it's over ..... and u wan it the way u wan and i respect it ... it realli hurts wherever i think of it imagine myself one day where by i meet u standin right in front of mi ... thn seein u nt lookin at mi at all and just walk away like tat just the same as wat both of us did during our sec sch days .... it realli ..... realli hurts and kills u know .... i realli dun wan tat to happen ... havin the urge and feelin of wantin to see u again but whenever i thought of how u will hide away from mi , i rather i nvr c u .... cause i dun wanna c u runnin away from mi if we meet each other ...
i hate myself wherever i am free .... cause wherever i am free, i would start to think things again ... thinkin abt how we started off and how we ended in tis way .... sorry .. i know u will sure be damn angry when u see tis .... i know tat i keep pullin u into tis situation again and again ... it's my fault ... nt yours .... it's mi myself tat i can't go ... it's mi myself tat i keep makin u angry and disturbing u .... i dun know wat mi myself wan ... i dun know ... i just wanna talk to u again in a veri friendly manner just like talkin to my bros .....
even tough u had break your promise .... i am nt angry at all ... i just wanna know wat u're thinkin ... y u suddenly change le .... it was all right startin at first de ... but y it turns out to be like tis ... i dun wanna be your most stranger whereby we can't talk even tough we know each other .... it's tough for mi to force myself nt to treat u like a stranger .... i wanted to cry ... but there's no where where i could let my tears drop ... u will be even angry by now if u have seen tis ... but no need to msg or find ways to reply mi ..... maybe u had your own reasons for nt acceptin mi and treatin mi like tis ba .... nvr mind ... maybe one day if u have cool down and ready to face mi le thn u tell mi ba ... i will be waitin for tat moment to come de .... always waitng ....
wat's goin on wif mi tis few days ... exams comin real damn soon and i am nt studyin at all ... do i wan a repeat in my semaster ma .... i am fallin real damn quick now ....
sorry to all my bros today abt my temper ..... i realli lost control of wat i am le ..... hope tat u all will understand tat i mean no offend and harm de ... i am just nt in gd mood today ... sorry guys ....
- y a.... u're right tat it's realli no point now holdin until now .... but u now y i keep holdin until now can't let go ma .... it's because i dun wanna lose u ... i dun wanna c u walk out of my life ... walkin out of my contacts .... i just wan u ... no more others ... sorry .... i keep pullin u back ... sorry ... sorry ... dui bu qi ... dui bu qi .... sorry ....