but ar ... we sit inside da hut keep kanna kiss by mosquito lo ..... so sian ar ... ehe he... thn our hair was like damn wet la ... eheheh... but i like it .. ehhehe... thn in da end we all dun care le la ... we all cycle in da rain lo ..e heheh .. rather than feedin mosquito ba ... eheheh.... thn we cycle in da rain lo ... onli gt one word da describe ... "SHIOK!!!!!!!!!" ehhe hehehe.... realli damn fun and shiok lo .... cause da rain was damn big la .. hehhhe... thn our whole clothes was wet like shit lo .. ehehehe.... aiya ... we cannot so fast resign da fate de ma ... watever weather heaven give us even it's snow we also must find a way of enjoyment de ma ... ehe he h... wa... thn was like damn damn damn damn fun lo ... he heheh.,.. i love cycle in da rain but i think i will fall sick sooner or later ba ... eh hehe... but also gd la .... =)
hm ... thn we stop over for coconut lo ..... ehehhe... wa... as usual lo it was damn cooling!! .... ehehehe.... nth da say ar .... thn after tat we cycle to a place where we can c wild boar and rabbit and birds these all de lo ... damn cool la ... thn alex they all bring mi da other place where i nvr cycle be4 de .... damn fun lo .... ehhehe... realli nth da say ar ... eh eheh... =)
i realli like da go beaches and nature place as long as there's peace and quiet ... cause i have no worries and nth da think abt de .... realli peaceful .... thanks guys for da fun .... i enjoy myself even tough there's realli 4 of us ....e he hehe...
thn after tat mi and jonathan go alex house lo .. eheheh... we all go there bath ... ehehe.... so shiok leh .... eh ehhe... thn alex father came da entertain us .... heh hehehe... sayin like wat other adults will often said to young adults lo .... heheh ehe exactly da same thing ... eheheh e.... aiya dun care la ...e he heh... thn after tat we go orchard lo ... thn jon gonna work thn alex acc mi go buy christmas present lo ..... ehehhe... yeah ... in da end buy le ...e hehehe... mm.. thn after tat meet pei qin and novena after her work thn also meet pinda at sembawang da go eat prata lo ... sad leh ... after askin so mani ppl da come onli da 3 of us again .... ehehe... but nvr mind ... still as fun ... eheh e... thn after tat met up wif hei hao thn we chat a lot lo at dennis house downstairs .... ehhehe... whew ... at least i have let out wat i wanna say de le ....... thn wa we from 12 plus talk until 2 plus lo ... eheh he... power rite .... thn i acc pinda and pq to da sun plaza there where da take taxi thn i go home liao lo ..... damn damn tired ....
no ... all of u are my bros .... i have no friends ... i know some of them maybe thinkin tat i am unfair or wat de .... but i wanna say smth myself but i am nt helpin out myself .... i know some of ya all mabe suspectin mi of smth ba .... but i just wanna say .... tat's wat ya all think .... but i realli didn't........ i have my own reasons for doin all these de ... i hope tat i will find someone hu truly understands wat i am doin .... i know maybe there r some misunderstandin between mi and ya all ..... but ..... haiz ......
i realised smth .... havin a veri veri gd long known friends may nt be a gd thing .... like mi ... i know all my these bros for 6 yrs le ... each of us knew each of our own character and personality well .... but since we r seperated from poly ... i can sense tat our tat kind of 'click' and 'links' r all gone le .... slowly slowly havin distance larger and larger le .... even tough we always met up ... but it seems tat it is still da same .... all of us were just like actin up puttin smiles and fake masks in front of each other but inside their heart there r lots of thinggs tat all of us didn't know ...
i finally began da understand y alex always tryin da tell mi tat his sec friends were all changin .... now i began da feel da change among my bros and everyone ard mi .... it seems like we r nt as fun as last time le .... nt as so link and click da each other le .... i guess maybe ... it's time for all of us da be slient for a while and thn meet up like once in 2-3 weeks ba ..... maybe like tat all of us will have more topics da talk to ba ....
ya .... i know my own bad points and tat is my treatment to all my bros and friends ..... i know i sometimes veri heavy color light friend .... and always care for gals and put them in front .... but can ya all tell mi tat u wun do tis ma .... each of us had our own way of thinkin .... maybe u will think tis way maybe will i think tis way ..... all of our angle of thinkin and seein things r different and tat's where conflicts came by .....
most of us do know ... once any of your friends had a bf or gf especially all my 'female bros' .... u will gradually leave our group de .... c'mon it's normal de rite ... and also it's hard da explain it on y i seldom ask those hu gt steady de da join us .... some of them may know ... some of them nt .... i admit tat maybe if i had a gf .... i will tend da more or less slowly leave tis group de .... i mean i will have less time gathering wif my bros le .... dun ya guys agree ma .....
and wat's more .... even worst whereby u had a couple whom r both your bros had broken up .... it's even worst when u wanna arrange a outin wif them cause u will needa stand on both sides .... and as long as u tend da care more abt one side , it will be unfair for either one of da party .... it's always like tat .... and i dun wanna ps one of them ... y can't mi myself do tat .... i am realli such a useless organiser .....
it's hard da organise smth whereby some of us no $$ .... i can understand u no $$ .... but can't ya just save $$ be4 da event comes ma .... some even worst .... gt $$ de but like everytime act like wanna save $$ dun wanna go here go there .... thn become so unsteady ... c'mon man ... can't ya just sacrifice yourself just da make everyone happy ... if it was mi .. i will surely do tat .... but no one appreciates .... tat's da worst thing wherever i organise stuffs .... I HATE TAT!!!!
it's reali tough being an organiser in da group ... and i am tired of it .... i have ran out of ideas ... if all of us had $$ .... i would be able da come up wif more programmes ... but too bad we're poor .... i realli had no idea on where da go and wat da do on christmas eve and christmas day .... please .... dun ask mi where da go le .... i am realli goin da fall soon le .... i can't take it much le .... new yr eve and new yr is also comin le .... y can't ya all just plan one programme out for mi ma ... maybe some of yours ideas would be better ne .... hu knows .... i am tired of these le .... i need a rest ... a long long rest ....
sometimes ... i just hope da like onli call out a few friends maybe 1 or 2 da have a small small gatherin onli but when da other bros knows abt it... they will say : 'wa.... nvr jio siah' ... yes , i am bein selfish ... i know i nvr ask ya all out ... but can't ya all understands ma ... i have my own freedom of askin anyone out ar ... it's nt like everytime i gonna ask da same old big group out ar ... sometimes if i ask ya all out also no use de ... cause we tend da like nth much da say .... so please ... understand mi hao ma ..... some of them will say tat aiya wat for gathering, we always gather de ma .... but thinkin , when's da last time we had a realli family big outin le wif all my bros and i realli mean ALL .... i know maybe ya all feel a bit sian ... but without all tis gathering or group studyin, do u think our brothership will come so far ma ... i bet it will be gone ever since da first week of our sch reopen ....
i know tis fri's dinner gathering, maybe i had did smth wrong tat made some of my bros angry or unhappy abt it ... i had nth much da say le .... maybe i am selfish , maybe u might think tat i onli care for others without think how ya all feel .... i onli can say sorry dui bu qi .... i realli can't balance on both side de .... i can't do things perfectly .... it's nt wat i wan de after all .... hope tat ya all can understand my doings ... i know i am bad .... sorry ....
sayin so much .... i just wanna say sorry for all my bros if i had did smth unfair or ps ya all ..... and i mean no offend de ... i just wanna say out wat my point was and how i felt .... mayeb some of u will agree wif mi ba ... mabe some nt .... maybe i think too much le .... or maybe i am bein too emotional because of my personal stuffs ba ..... but watever it is .... u all r still my bros forever... i swear!!!! =)
- I am realli realli realli veri tired le ....... no one realli understands wat i am doin ...... even myself....