thn after tat nth da do at home so slp lo ... thn until 6 plus go play basketball wif ling wei, jian wei, jia jun, wei hao, benjamin, kai tai , yong sheng , jian long and pinda lo ... hehe he... wa... so mani ppl hor .. ehe h... thn play halfway rainnin liao ... hehehe... aiya thn all fo us dun care lo thn caryr on playin in da rain ... eh eh... thn until da rain realli become too big liao thn went into da shelter lo .... eheheh... thn we discuss abt our t shirt thinggy lo .. ehehe.. thn go sun plaza eat dinner thn go home liao lo ... eheh ... although it's a bit wierd to spend my 1st of jan like tis la but it's all right de... eheheh ...
just read my past entire msn history abt my conversation wif her de .... cried for a while... it's realli damn long but wif lots of memories and laughter .... i wanna be back to there again ... back to the point we started to talk .... so tat i will nt make the same mistakes again ....
ok guys ... tis time round i am serious le and i am onli goin to say tis once .... " i realli decided to give up le " realli le .... no more thinkin of her ..... although it's hard , but i am realli gonna force myself to do tis .... i know it's useless if i keep on forcing myself telling myself tat there may be chance .... NO !! i am onli dreaming .... i know she has no more feelings for mi anymore le ... tat's y i should nt keep on pestering her le .... i can't force her to have feelings again for mi de ... tat's nt the right way ... i know one day , when she cool down le or if she has feelings for mi ... she will approach mi and talk to mi again de ... mi just slowly wait for tat day to come ba .... even tough it's goin to take a few yrs or maybe there wun be tis day .... i will just be awaiting ....
i realli give up le ... it's realli time for mi to let go le .... u must believe mi ar ... i just wanna be friend wif u again ... be a veri veri gd friend just like last time be your ear listener tat's all .... unlike now ... familiar stranger .... i know u maybe wun believe mi ba ... but nvr mind , time will prove all tis de ........
lights off .... Zzzz...
- gonna find back my motivation quick and clear all my thoughts in my mind, if nt i will sure die de .....