it's 3:36 am le and i am nt slping cause .... i am thinkin of smth .... y would it end up like tat again le ne ..... i onli ask a small small favor and yet da outcome is even worse .... now .... i think she is still angry wif mi ba .... i dun know whether is it mi myself realli think wrong abt u ma or ..... aiya i just dun wanna say hu wrong hu right le ....

i try da play games da make myself nt thinkin of tat le but looks loke it's no use ... i have no mood in playin games .... i am pondering abt wat had happened .... maybe i realli think too much le or wat ne .... it's been worse ..... it's damn worse .... worse till i dun know how da solve it le .... my head realli hurts now .... from stranger until now quarreling .... i realli dun wanna have a fight de .... i realli dun wan .... y would i wan it for ..... now i kept thinkin how da solve our misunderstanding again le ....

i guess i am realli nt a gd guy ba .... i am just a clown tat can't make u happy at all .... onli give u more and more problems .... worse and worse every time .... mi tis fucker realli shouldn't come across in your life ba ..... some ppl say mi stupid .... yes, i am indeed stupid .... i realli can't imagine it will turn out to be like tis .... y can't we had a peaceful talk ne .... i just want to salvage our friendship tat's all .... there's no need to be like strangers like dun know each other like tat ba .... am i wrong .... i dun know .... i know tat sayin how mani times sorry also no use le .... u will still hate mi de ..... looks like i am goin to have regrets and tis unsettled probs kept in my heart till the day i die le ba ..... just hope tat everythings will be all right sooner or later as time pass by ba .... trust tat time will reveals all .... i know no use de but i still wanna say it ..... dui bu qi, sorry ... if there's any other way tat could clear all our misunderstandings, i will swear to do it ....


being a normal friend wif u is it so damn hard ma .... i have tried of ways here and there just to pray hard tat at least tis matter wun affect our friendship and yet it realli happened .... wat's the matter wif both of us ..... hating each other and havin regrets throughout our entire life ma ..... i realli dun know .... i realli dun know .... did i do anything wrong ma .... can anyone tell mi .... i realli desperately wanting to know .... pls tell mi wat should i do now ..... my life's in a mess, my head hurts, my heart bleeds and i am goin crazy!!!!