sian ytrd wanna blog de but can't log on to da webby ... dun know y ... h ehee... ya last week was realli hell for mi ... gonna rush for tat !@#$@# pro-E assess tutorial and also gt maths test .... i think da rest of da weeks will also be hell for mi le ... cause exams comin soon ... real soon ... just right after my birthday ... haiz ... i dun wanna get gg-ed ar .... lolz ...
yapps .... today my topic is abt da 2 things i hate ... until now thn i realli realise myself wat i realli hate in life ... and tat is STRESS & LACK OF SLEEP ... first of all i realli damn hate stress la ... cause it will keep mi thinkin and thinkin in my head .... as those hu know mi will know , i am someone hu thinks negatively and think too much ... so tat's y i hate stress ... nt onli tat it will make mi headache too ... no choice i dun wish da owned by stress ....
next is lack of sleep , ya y do i hate lackin of sleep , firstly it makes mi sleep in lectures , secondly i will get easily agitated over small things just like gals havin pms ... lolz ... i dun wanna be someone hu just kick up a small fuss over small things and keep whinning here and there ... tat's childish ok ...
hm ... looks like da probs r still there ... i still can't glue my friends together back in one piece ... i realli hate da situation of friends i have it now , no matter is sec or poly de .... sorry to offend ya all ... i realli hope da have da same old sweet grp just like last time .... now my current grp A has a new click grp , wherelse grp B still da same , but dun tell mi ya all just wanna be liek tis forever , waitin for us da be splited off and dun care abt it ... how i wish i could make us of my birhtday and glues ya all back ... but i know it's a real damn tough job .... y can't just both sides shake hands and apologised .... it somehow realli makes those hu r innocent in a veri difficult position ...
and to my the other gang of grp ... i had nth much da say .... just hope tat there wun be any more tis kind of stuffs happen anymore .... sometimes y can't ppl just be more open a bit nt da argue so much over small small thinggs ... i mean ok maybe he is wrong but u can't say until like he did it on purposely without any prove ... maybe ya all know which is which and may feel offended , but i am realli sorry ... i just wanna let it out ... both sides of freinds were havin situations tat were unsolved ....
i used da believe tat da bigger da grp da more fun and merrier it will be .... but i was wrong ... damn wrong ... a bigger grp means more prob , more ppl more conflicts .... y can't ppl just nt be so petty , able da let go thinggs easily .... y y y ... i just dun understand .... perhaps if a big grp can't get along well wif one another , splitting off into small grps and carry on moving by themselves maybe a better choice ba as wat i see now ...
exams comin and i am nt doin anything .... am i prepared for a repeat ... i dun wanna let my parents down ... nt i dun wanna study , is just tat i dun find any motivation to study ..... i just can't get off myself and sit on a chair and take out my book da study ... others r already started da revise and yet wat i am doin .... NTH .... looks like i am havin a major and serious prob in myself .... hu can cure mi ....
i am realli goin to break down in any min any sec... i dun wanna break down , if i realli fell .... thn i am realli a goner ...
lights off .... Zzz...
- is nt tat i dun wan , is just because i am afraid of smth ....