i guess maybe i realli can't balance myself well .... it's realli hard to do 2 things at the same time ... how i wish i had 2 mi whereby i could do both things at the same time to satisfy the surroundings .... well ... i expected all these to happen one day and it did ... h ehee... but i am tryin veri hard to force myself to do it .... even tough most of the times it failed ... lolz ... anyway just wanna say sorry to my bros .... sorry for nt bein able da spend some time wif ya all ... he hee.. yeah , ya all already predicted tat tis will happen one day rite .. ehehe.. i myself admit tat i am realli zhong se ... but sometimes i realli can't do it .... perhaps ya all could give mi more time da adapt wat i am goin through now ... i believe as time goes by , i would be able da be a 'balanced' guy ... =) spendin equal amount of time between gf and friends , to mi it's realli a difficult task .... i realli love my gf , i wanna spend more time wif her ... but at the same time i needa spend time also wif my friends .... both r impt in my life i guess i am realli selfish da choose onli 1 .... realli veri sorry tat i have nt been 'steady' wif ya guys ... lolz .... just give mi some more time ok ... right now , i just hope da spend more time wif my gf .... even mi myself also uncertain abt how da explain ... i just dun know how da put it ... pls dun be offended by my words , i am just bein straight forward abt my thoughts .... i dun wanna lie to anyone ....

last of all , i am realli sorry to everyone ard mi for nt spendin time wif ya all i know wat i am sayin maybe useless & meaningless ... and love u switheart <3 Xx